Conversion: From Abortion to Pro-Life Campaigner

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Recently, I was awestruck by an article in The Tablet: The International Catholic Weekly published from London (Issue 23 March 2019, p.9, Vol 273, No 9294) with a title “A Prayer for Life” by Laura Keynes who happens to be the editor of The Tablet’s Living Spirit Column.  

This is a story of Keynes herself who once went through an abortion at the Marie Stopes House in Fitzrovia, Central London.  She recounts her earlier life story when she entered this clinic as a young woman who chose to terminate a crisis of pregnancy two pro-life women shouted at her, “Don’t do it luv. You are taking a life”.  As one of them holding a large Rosary at her said, “You’re taking a life!” 

Keynes who was irritated at that time asked the receptionist of the clinic “Can’t you get rid of them?”.  “We’ve tried, but they’re on public land here. Nothing we can do” was the sober reply.

Today, Keynes who is Catholic, is a mom of three.  She is a different woman.  She believes that the prayers of those two pro-life women must have played a significant role in turning her into a pro-lifer herself.  Recently, she participated in “40 Days for Life” an international campaign of prayer, fasting and peaceful vigil which ran from 6th March to 14 April.  Even though, she is unable to explain the power of prayer and grace behind her conversion, certainly, she is a converted pro-lifer. 

In her article, Keynes explains the way she participated in her first pro-life campaign, which was not necessarily well organized.  In spite of the freezing temperatures, the rain turning to sleet, she along with other four bedraggled souls made it happen on that evening.  She writes very warmly how much she was excited to participate in it in the evening hours living behind her husband, three daughters - one year, three year and four year old - all who were begging not to leave them on that precious evening.  On the way to the prayer vigil, Keynes explains how even the nature seems to have been against them with traffic getting jammed, rain splashing, wind blowing so heavily making the vigil happen was almost like a battle. 

Strangely, the vigil was held just outside the Marie Stopes House with not many attendees where once Keynes went through an abortion.  She held the placards with words “Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you.”  This time the pro-lifers were not left with peace but with verbal attacks by the passers by.

  

The way Keynes concludes this episode is very heart warming.  As she returned from the prayer vigil, probably it must have been quite late, she found in her bedroom a little envelope on her pillow with one word in crayon:  “Mummy”.  She concludes her article with these words, “What a blessing of a word.  A scrumpled scribble inside; a child’s declaration of love for her mother.  I thought of all the women robbed of this moment, and of all the children who will never have a chance to write the word “Mummy”.  My heart broke for them.”  

I find this personal encounter of a woman with the reality very inspiring in a world where humanity does not like to listen to the inner voice.  There is always still voice crying out inside but the person will have to open the eyes, ears and the heart to the reality of humanity and life.  In our overcrowded life, finding a sacred space is need of the hour in order to cultivate a culture of life instead of culture of death.  

- Ovin Veigas, SJ

05 June 2019

Ascension of Our Lord and Discipleship

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Today’s both first and the third readings are penned by St Luke (Acts 1: 1-11, Lk 24: 46-53).  If the Gospel reading is taken from the last part of St Luke’ Gospel, then the first reading is taken from the very beginning of the Acts of the Apostles.  Thus both readings, the way they are arranged symbolize ending of Jesus’ earthly ministry in a very fascinating way and begins a new chapter in the lives of his disciples through the overpowering of the Holy Spirit. 

The Acts of the Apostles speaks very movingly how the Risen Jesus was taken up to heaven. It speaks about cloud and two men in white. The imagery of cloud is found throughout the Old Testament to signify God’s holy presence. When Israel went out of Egypt, the Lord went before them by day in a pillar of cloud (Ex 13:21). When Moses climbed Mount Sinai to stand before God, the Lord descended in a cloud (Ex 24:18). And in the New Testament, we read about the Transfiguration and the cloud from which God the Father announced Jesus as “my Son, my Beloved” (Mt 3:17). The Psalm 46 for today says “God goes up with shouts of joy; the Lord goes up with trumpet blast” to replete with the foretelling of the Ascension. The point is that the manner of the Ascension reveals again Christ’s divinity, His relation to Father. 

Interestingly Ascension of the Lord takes place outskirts of Bethany where Jesus had great friends Martha, Mary and Lazarus. And he had raised dead Lazarus and given life to him. Bethany is very close to Jerusalem. And this city of Jerusalem is a city of David, a city which accommodated the ark of the covenant and where God dwell, a city where God resided, a city which also put Jesus to death, but now becomes very part of Jesus’ ascension episode. In other words, Jerusalem is a city of divinity. The resurrected Jesus is fully divine. The disciples cannot hang on him. They listen to him; he appears and disappears.  Interestingly, even though Jesus went through the crucifixion, death and burial near Jerusalem, he did not appear to his disciples in Jerusalem but in Galilee (Mark 16:7).  At the tomb he appeared to Mary Magdalene and "the other Mary".  Now with the ascension of Jesus in Jerusalem the work of divinizing people begins there. This work is carried out by his beloved disciples. Jesus reminds his disciples what had already foretold that they “in his name, repentance for the forgiveness of sins would be preached to all the nations beginning from Jerusalem. You are witnesses to this” (24:47). If Jesus started his preaching ministry in Galilee and other parts of North of the country, but the ministry of the apostles begins in the South of the country from Jerusalem.  The work of disciples in giving testimony to Jesus does not end in Jerusalem or in Galilee but as the Acts of the Apostles tells us “not only in Jerusalem but throughout Judaea and Samaria, and indeed to the ends of the earth” (1:8).

The Ascension is part of what we call the Paschal Mystery. There are four inter-related parts: suffering and death; resurrection; ascension; and the sending of the Spirit. They are closely interlocked as one reality. If the resurrection says that the crucified Jesus is alive, the Ascension says that the living Jesus has entered into glory, sharing on an equal level the glory of his Father. This is expressed in many different ways in different writings of the New Testament. We have three of these viewpoints or understandings in each of today’s readings. On God’s right hand in the Letter to the Ephesians 1: 17:23 (Second Reading of today) the fact is stated with great solemnity but without saying how it took place. The author speaks of the strength of [God’s] power at work in Christ, when he used it to raise him from the dead and to make him sit at his right hand, in heaven, far above every Sovereignty, Authority, Power, or Domination, or any other name that can be named, not only in this age, but also in the age to come. 

Consider also our words in the Creed, which we profess every Sunday Mass: “He ascended into heaven, and is seated at the right hand of the Father.” There is a sense of ending because the Ascension marks the end of the human physical presence of Christ amongst us - for now, at least; He promised to come again. The Ascension is both ending and beginning, one of the many “both-and’s” of Catholicism.

This brings us to consider the second offering from St Luke: his Gospel account in which we hear the sense of a beginning, the beginning of the Church. The Ascension was not the end of the Father’s work but heralded a new era in salvation history.

With the ascension of the Lord, from now on wherever there is “love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, faithfulness, gentleness…”, wherever there is truth, love, compassion, justice, freedom, beauty the Spirit of Jesus is there. While the scene in Acts takes place in Jerusalem (for Luke the focal point of all that Jesus means for the world), Matthew has the disciples back on their home ground in Galilee. For, it is in the familiarity of home, not up in the skies, that Jesus is to be found. They are at the mountain “where Jesus arranged to meet them”. This is the mountain where Jesus once revealed himself to three disciples at the Transfiguration (chap. 17) and where he touched them (“Stand up; do not be afraid.”). This is not really an ascension scene. It is understood that the Risen Jesus is already in the glory of the Father. We have here rather an appearance of the Risen Jesus, an appearance that relies on faith. So, on the one hand they worship and, on the other, they have doubts – an experience all of us can have from time to time. The emphasis here is not on the appearance of Jesus but on what he has to say to his disciples. It is in three parts – past, present and future. Jesus, source of all authority.

First, Jesus tells them that all authority of the Creator God himself, has been given to him. To commit oneself totally to Jesus is to commit oneself to God. 

Second, Jesus gives the command to “make disciples” of people everywhere. He is thus passing on much of his own authority to his disciples. Pentecost will be the confirmation of this. They are to do what he did. They will have the power to reconcile the sinful with God and with the community and to decide who are not yet ready for reconciliation and full participation in the community’s life. The community has standards to keep in order to be a living and credible witness of Jesus and his Gospel. It has a corporate right to maintain those standards. They are to teach, to heal, to break down the divisions that separate people. Baptism in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit will be the symbol of incorporation as members of Christ’s Body, as disciples of Jesus. Always with us.  

Third, the Risen and Ascended Jesus is not far away. He is with his followers and will be with them to the end of time. It is a reminder of the promise made at the very beginning of Matthew’s Gospel, before the birth of Jesus: “Behold, a virgin shall conceive and bear a son, and his name will be called Emmanuel (which means, God is with us)” (Matt 1:23) and again later on, “Wherever two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them” (Matt 18:20). 

The gift of the Spirit is not mentioned but is clearly implied by the promise of the ongoing presence of Jesus. Today’s feast then is a celebration of Jesus’ glory after his suffering and death – a glory in which we also hope to share. At the same time, we celebrate the ongoing presence of the Risen Jesus among us, a presence which calls on every one of us to be living witnesses to that presence here in our own community and to the ends of the earth.

Questions for reflections:

1. How can I be a good news to others?

2. Where can I find a sacred space in my life?

- Olvin Veigas, SJ

02 June 2019

Peace I Leave to You

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The Gospel reading for 6th Sunday of Easter, John 14:23-29, is magnificent in its content.  Our Catholic vocabulary is rich with a number of momentous monosyllables: God, Christ, church, faith, hope love, prayer, cross, hell and so on.  They are full of meaning and full of mystery.

Today, we have another monosyllable that we meet in the Gospel: "Peace I leave to you" Jn 14:27: "Peace". 

Everybody knows what peace is.  But do we know exactly what kind of peace Jesus is talking about?  What does peace mean in the promise of Jesus?  Is peace a problem?

We live in an unpeaceful world, wars are raging, conflicts are everywhere.  From Middle East, Lebanon, Israel, Iraq, Afghanistan, Libya, Syria, to African continent, from Palestine to our own Kashmir Valley is bloody.  Refugees are fleeing from one country to another in search of better prospects and security.  Latinos are moving to United States and from Asia and Africa people are making their way into the European continent.

On 24 May 2019, our Jesuit General Arturo Sosa wrote to the Society of Jesus saying "last year the United Nations refugee agency reported that 68.5 million people had been forced from their homes, the highest number ever recorded.  25.4 million of these are refugees who fled their own countries to find safety and protection across international borders."  Jesuit Refugee Service (JRS) which was founded by Fr Pedro Arrupe SJ in 1980 "now serves 640,000 people in 53 countries; 1 in every 100 forcibly displaced person in the world today is directly supported or served by JRS.

In this contest, we are almost called to spy for peace on earth.  Jesus promises peace but he warns in his peaching: "Do you think I have come to bring peace on earth. I have not come to bring peace but a sword" Mt 10:34. In another place Jesus speaks about "dissension", "division", "disunity" Lk 12: 51.  Scripture itself is a paradox, some would call it a flat contradiction.  In such contradictions we are called to find meaning in what Jesus says.  

Is peace really possible?  Does Shalom make any sense to us when there is so much, hatred, jealousy, war, fear, anger, discord, dislike, pride, anxiety, angst and so on.  When you see the absence of God in this world, is peace possible?  Is there a chance for peace?

The promise of peace for Jesus is different.

In the Old Testament, Biblical peace is rich with content that no English word can render it adequately.  Peace means that things are going on well with you; you are happy; you feel secure; you have friends; you have a fruitful land; eat your fill and sleep without fear, multiply your progeny and triumph over your enemies.

For Israelites peace was not simply harmony with nature, with self and with others. It meant true harmony with God, a right relationship with Yahweh, for "the Lord is peace" Judg 6:24.  It was an encounter with a living God and who is always at their side. 

In this sense peace was salvation. Ultimately it is realised in the communion with Him who gives all that is good.

Peace that Jesus announces is that of saving peace; "My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you" Jn 14:27. 

The sinful woman after washing the feet of Jesus with tears sent with the words "go in peace" Lk 7:50, 48, because her sins are forgiven.

With the greeting "peace to this house" Lk 10:5, the disciples offer salvation to the towns during their proclamation of Jesus' mission and where Jesus would go.  Jesus' entry into Jerusalem is marked with shouts of joy and with peace.

Peter preaches the Easter Peace to the ends of the earth. "You know the word which [God] sent to Israel, preaching the good news that is peace though Jesus Christ" Acts 10: 36-37.

The gospel is peace, peace is the gospel.  "Peace rules our hearts" exclaims Paul in Col 3:15.  Peace is the "fruit of the Holy Spirit" Gal 5:22.

God of peace is the one who saves. a heart at peace heart in communion with its God in Christ Jesus.

The peace Jesus is speaking about is that the world cannot give.  This peace is a blessing, where everything is reconciled with the Creator.  It's a redemptive peace.   It is a reconciled peace through Christ.

The paradox is that peace of Christ can coexist with war in the world, with human agony, suffering, death and various forms of dying and destruction.

Jesus gives us courage to our troubled souls. He says, "I have said this to you that in me you may find peace.  In the world you find suffering, but have courage.  I have conquered the world" Jn 16:33. 

When there is so much of anti-God, anti-peace activities going on in the world, love can stand above all this.  Because in this broken world God became human like us, lived among us, suffered, died and conquered the world.  This is the good news for us.

We often sing, "where peace and charity are found, there God abides". In Christ peace and love abides.  We believe in him, we trust in him, we follow him, we love him, we also resurrect with him. 

Through a living faith, a loving faith and yes, a crucifying faith we can conquer this world.  Christ, our Saviour has shown the path. 

The paradox is when you open your heart to others you will experience the peace of Christ.  You will feel his real presence.  So do not be discouraged.  We are called to transform this world, ourselves and others. A new paradigm shift happens here.  Everyone is called to this unique mission through our baptism. 

Jesus gives his disciples the ability to abandon themselves to God.  In this abandonment, if they allow themselves, they can come to know true joy.

In a few moments from now at the Mass,  we will wish one another peace. Let's wish one another freedom from anxiety within.  Wish one another harmony and health;  pray that everyone who is here may experience peace of the Lord.  Wish everyone good things, happy things.

Thus the presence of Christ will make your "spirit spin," your "bones to quake, "your blood run thin," your "flesh to melt inside your skin," your "very pulse create a din" - aware "That Heaven is / not up, but in"!  (From a poem by Sister Mary Ignatius "Discovery").

It's this that makes

My spirit spin,

My bones to quake,

My blood run thin,

My flesh to melt

Inside my skin,

My very pulse

Create a din-

It's this that makes

My spirit spin:

That Heaven is

Not up, but in!

Olvin Veigas, SJ

26 May 2019

Risen Jesus, Fish and Flock

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The Gospel reading for the Third Sunday of the Easter, John 21: 1-19,  where Jesus appears to seven disciples and the special final conversation with Peter, the Apostle, is really fascinating and intriguing.  The experience of the disciples of the Risen Jesus has something concretely to say to us in recognising the presence of God and of Jesus in our daily lives.  To be an authentic and genuine disciple of Jesus it's not just to be "holy" or to be good but to have courage and boldness when the call comes to do uncomfortable and difficult things including ready to suffer.  Thus sharing the suffering of Jesus we also share in his glory eternal. 

Basically two things happen in the gospel narrative: Firstly, Jesus' appearance to his 7 disciples while fishing by the Sea of Tiberias.  Secondly, Jesus having an intimate talk with Peter and giving a job of leading Jesus' mission with other disciples on this earth. 

Disciples are back from Jerusalem to their native land of Galilee, from the city of God to the city of man, from the mountain of Calvary to the plateau of Galilee, from following the Rabbi Jesus to fishing in the sea.

Disciples being back in their homeland, Galilee, who loved fishing, go back to fishing, their first job, back to ordinary business.  Looks like they have forgotten their skill as nets are empty in spite of whole night's labour and waiting.  There they meet Risen Jesus in ordinary things, just like Jesus had called them for the first time, so too now, Jesus makes an appearance to them in person.  However, for the moment in a different form after three years, since he met them mending their nets.  Jesus meets them in the things they liked to do most, that is, fishing. 

But the meeting with Jesus is now different from the last time.  All the 7 disciples on the boat are frustrated, disappointed because they caught nothing.  Desolated.  depression is surrounded them after what has happened in Jerusalem.  Whole night has been spent in the boat and now terribly tiered. The weariness has led them to silence.  Hunger and thirst is eating their forlorn spirits.  Their bodies are longing for sleep and rest.  Hopelessness has surrounded in every inch of their boat, in a sense the world is closed.  A deep sense of emptiness in their hearts and minds because their nets are empty;  they are still waiting.  In this drudgery and messiness the Risen Jesus meets them.  Don’t you think it must have been such a beautiful experience to them? 

Jesus also meets us in the things that we like most. The things that we do with great faith and consolation.  Disciples had forgotten the words of Jesus: "Without me, you can do nothing" (John 15:5).  When we forget God, God remembers us and comes close to us.  All the more, Jesus is present in those things that brings good for ourselves and others

In the symbolism of the gospels, the boat and those in it represent the church, the community in Christ.  And it is this “beloved” disciple, who is particularly close to Jesus, who can recognise his presence.  We too are called to lead others, and recognise God's presence and lead many more to him. 

The second incident that takes place in that episode is Risen Jesus asking Peter a very touching question, an intimate question: "Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?"

Probably we do not like to hear a repeated question from our close friends or from the person whom we love most.

Firstly, that is emotional, and carries a sense of suspicion and apprehension. Moreover, this puts the person in awkward position. 

Secondly, Jesus is asking a very serous question of following him; checks Peter's faithfulness.  It is a reminder to Peter that he may not fail again.  He was reluctant when Jesus wanted to wash his feet.  He had denied Jesus  already 3 times when he was caught by the elders and chief priests.  Peter had already said to Jesus that even his other 11 disciples disowned him yet he would not.   He would give his life to his master. Jesus also knows the earlier episodes of catching fish and when he recognised  Jesus he had jumped into the sea, tried to imitate Jesus by walking on the water but failed miserably and was sinking and Jesus had saved him (Matthew: 14:30).  

The first call of Peter at the Sea of Galilee while casting the net along with his brother Andrew becomes a reality now with those words of Jesus "Follow me, and I will make you fish for people." (Mt 4:18-19).  And now he has to "Feed my lambs" (John 21: 15-19). Peter's call turns into transforming leader giving a spirited leadership to his discouraged brothers and frustrated followers of Jesus of Nazareth.

The Easter experiences make the disciples bold, strong and faithful. There is nothing that can deter them or destroy their new found enthusiasm.

1. Is Jesus present in our endeavours?
2. Has the Lord’s presence made a difference in our lives?
3. Am I ready to long for Jesus and embrace him in my frustrations, desolations, disappointments, emptiness, weariness, sleepiness, hopelessness, depression, tiredness, loneliness, hunger and thirst, waiting and fatigue? 

A prayer to live by

Perhaps we could finish with the words of a prayer of Cardinal John Henry Newman (slightly adapted), which beautifully expresses what we have been considering:

Dear Jesus,

help me to spread your fragrance everywhere I go.

Flood my soul with your spirit and life.

Penetrate and possess my whole being so utterly

that all my life may be only a radiance of Yours.

Shine through me and be so in me

that every person I come in contact with

will feel your presence in me.

Let them look up and see,

not only me, but also Jesus.”

- Olvin Veigas, SJ

06 May 2019

Easter Homecoming

I wish you a happy Easter!

We are the Easter People. Alleluia is our song. Easter brings us peace individually and joy as a community. Having walked for forty days with the Lord and having accompanied him in his passion, suffering and death in the Holy Week, now we are participating in the joy of the Resurrection of Our Lord. 

"The earth itself is our home" wrote Jesuit theologian Karl Rahner. "In his death the Risen Christ has become the heart of this earthly world, the divine heart in the innermost heart of the world… we do not need to leave her, for the life of God dwells in her. When we want both the God of infinity and our beloved earth – when we want both for our eternally free home, there is but the one path." It is this, in coming home to ourselves we come home to our world. 

That is the meaning of the Easter homecoming – it is a coming home to the divinity in ourselves in an earth that is now established as our true home, because it is the home of God. Our homeland is not in a faraway heaven any more: it is to be found at our own neighbourhood. 

The journey of Easter is a journey of salvation. This happens here and now. We are part of this bigger picture of God's rising from the world which he created. The Incarnation meets its fullness in the Resurrection of Our Lord. The man who walked length and breath of of Israel continues to walk in the entire cosmos taking the whole creation unto himself. So that the creation could see the glory of God. Being the image and likeness of God we are led into that glory we can attain once again the likeness of God because the treachery of sin and power of evil have been destroyed once and for all. Now, we can see God of light, truth and life face to face along with heavenly beings of angels and seraphim's. 

This Easter has made us once and for all the partakers of divine nature. Let this Easter Season help us to discover the divine goodness that carry with us here on earth and spread the fragrance of it to each and every person around us. My Easter prayer for you comes from the Jesuit poet, Gerard Manley Hopkins: “Let Him Easter in us, be a dayspring to the dimness of us, be a crimson-cresseted east.”

- Olvin Veigas, SJ

23rd April 2019

The Power and Significance of Condolence Messages

Often, everything that happens to you is an experience in itself.  In recent years, I’ve been becoming aware about the things that are happening within me and around me.  In other words, I have become sensitive to things, situations, actions, events and incidents.  Probably my own health crises must have added to my already existing nature of being quick to recognise or give words or expressions to such feelings, emotions and movements of the heart. 

A very recently, when my mom passed away I understood the significance of messages of condolence. To accept the passing away of my mom was extremely difficult because we were very intimately connected.  Every second day she would call me over the mobile in the last two years and we would speak for quite a few minutes.  In fact, I learnt the skill of killing the time over the phone through my mom. A great teacher, indeed!

Each condolence message brought a unique message and received with a particular feeling.  It also depended on my relationship with the person, my friendship, acquaintances, etc. 

One thing was common in all, that is, every message brought me consolation and a sense of belonging to a human family where pain is shared by all.  I also found that those who called me over the telephone were brief, cordial, and included a touch of spiritual warmth.  Most of the messages  by e-mail, WhatsApp consisted a sense of prayerful wishes of comfort and support. 

Fr George Griener, SJ, who was my academic guide, mentor and friend while I was pursuing my studies in Berkeley, CA, US  sent me something from Jesuit theologian Karl Rahner,  a part of prayer  which had helped in his own life.  This made me ponder and meditate over the mystery of life. 

"Prayer to the God of the Living" By Karl Rahner

I should like to remember my dead to you, O Lord, all those who once belonged to me and have now left me.  There are many of them, far too many to be taken in with one glance.  If I am to pay my sad greeting to them all, I must rather travel back in memory over the entire route of my life’s journey….

…The true procession of my life however consists only of those bound together by real love, and this column grows shorter and more quiet, until one day I myself will have to break off from the line of march and leave without a word or wave of farewell, never more to return.

That’s why my heart is now with them, with my loved ones who have taken their leave of me.  There is no substitute for them, there are no others who can fill the vacancy when one of those whom I have really loved suddenly and unexpectedly departs and is with me no more.  In true love, no one can replace another, for true love loves the other into that depth where is he uniquely and irreplaceably himself.

Therefore when death has trudged through my life, each of those who have departed has taken something of my heart with them, indeed often my whole heart.  Anyone who has really loved and still loves finds life changed, even before death, into a living with the dead.  For could the one who loves forget his or her dead?  And if someone has really loved, then his ‘forgetting’ and ‘having exhausted his tears’ is not the sign of being comforted again, but of the ultimacy of his mourning, the sign that a piece of his own heart has really died with the dead person and now is living dead, and therefore can no longer weep…..”

Karl Rahner, Prayers for a Lifetime¸ included from his earlier collection, Words Spoken into the Silence, composed when he was 34 years old.

- Olvin Veigas

31 March 2019

4th Sunday of Lent

Mother and Her Absence

One of the things that I noticed in my own life quite recently is that how the passing away of your dear one affects your life without its many expressions.  When my mom left this world on the 7th of February 2019, I was with her holding her.  Even though, her passing was so quiet, peaceful and graceful, she had come to that stage with a lot of pain and suffering, leaving her with many questions which she did not hesitate to share.  One of such questions was, “why God is not taking me from here?”  

The serenity with which my mom breathed her last left in me, too, a grace, a sense of thankfulness and peace.  I said to myself, mom has done everything she had to do in this world as God’s beautiful creation, moreover, she has taught me what I am.  Through her suffering I too learnt what that suffering is.  Offering oneself to God was the only way out in all the suffering.  Nothing else.

(With mom on my Ordination day 28 Dec 2008) 

I experienced the great pain of my mom’s passing after 30 hours; the day of her funeral.  I could not control myself the grief and inner sorrow.  The very thing that came to my mind again and again was, now on I will not see mom and will not hear her voice again.  I will not have her phone calls which I did every alternate day.  I will not have her presence henceforth to make me comfortable at home whenever I reach my native place. 

At a fairly young age, I left my country because of the kind of life I chose, that is to be a Jesuit and to be "sent".  On my rare home visits from abroad to my family home were full of joy.  Mom prepared the dishes that I would not get elsewhere.  She made a special point to ask. She prepared pickle for me so that I could carry to Russia and have sometimes at my meals; this was also appreciated by my fellow Jesuits in Moscow.  Probably, in the life of a priest and the kind of life he lives as a consecrated person and single either his mother or sister become very dear and near to him.  Certainly, I am not immune to that mystery of life.  Perhaps the attachment that I have towards my mom will be part of my life let I take any vow of renunciation.  Nevertheless, I should turn to a Church Father to whom his mother meant a lot in his life, not only bringing him forth into this life temporal but also praying for him so that he too becomes part of her faith and life of salvation.

Very interestingly St Monica, the mother of St Augustine, talked to her son at her deathbed on the island of Ostia regarding her funeral: “Lay this body anywhere, let not the care for it trouble you at all. This only I ask, that you will remember me at the Lord's altar, wherever you be.” (Confessions IX, 11).

This is what St. Augustine writes about his mother after many years of her death in his book “Confessions”:  “And when we were at the Tiberine Ostia my mother died.  Much I omit, having much to hasten.  Receive my confessions and thanksgivings, O my God, for innumerable things concerning which I am silent.  But I will not omit anything that my soul has brought forth as to that Your handmaid who brought me forth—in her flesh, that I might be born to this temporal light, and in her heart, that I might be born to life eternal.  I will speak not of her gifts, but Yours in her; for she neither made herself nor educated herself.  You created her, nor did her father nor her mother know what a being was to proceed from them.” (Confessions IX, 8)

Furthermore, the good son, Augustine enumerates the virtues of his holy mother: “She had been the wife of one man, had requited her parents, had guided her house piously, was well-reported of for good works, had brought up children, as often travailing in birth of them (cf. Galatians 4:19) as she saw them swerving from You.  Lastly, to all of us, O Lord (since of Your favour Thou sufferest Your servants to speak), who, before her sleeping in You, (cf. 1 Thessalonians 4:14) lived associated together, having received the grace of Your baptism, did she devote, care such as she might if she had been mother of us all; served us as if she had been child of all.” (Confessions IX, 9).

There is nothing more to add. St. Augustine speaks for us all.

- Olvin Veigas

25th March 2019

The Feast of Annunciation

Empowerment of Women and Their Protection - Speech in Kannada

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